First blog entry ever....let's see how it goes

So with this being my first blog and first blog entry, let's see how this pans out...

So my name's Ruby, 22, divorced, living back at home with mom. I've dealt with and been through more b.s than most people I know, but I know that many more have had it harder, and knowing that helps keep me grounded. 

In high school, I was the choir geek, the emo but never let anyone know, the medicated, the always depressed, the eat my feelings girl. However all that is changing. I still love to sing, I'm no longer emo, no longer medicated, depressed from time to time, recovering from a brief stint with anorexia girl.

Not many people know about how or why I starved myself, if I knew why I would have done something about it. I get sick a lot because my body is still re-adjusting to having to digest food. But I know that I have to fight through it. And my mom sure didn't raise no quitter.


I firmly believe in "go big or go home" and "no pain no gain" I take these sayings and turn them into a lifestyle.

My friends list on facebook is fairly big. Out of all of them aside from family I only truly trust 2 of them. Zach T. and Casper :) They truly are my best friends. I couldn't ask for more crazy, dysfunctional and supportive friends even if I wanted to. They understand me, and they don't judge. They know more about me than most anyone else and I wouldn't trade them for the world.

I have a daughter, Hailey. She's almost 2 and a half. When I found out I was pregnant, I was homeless and had nothing. My older sister Doreen, helped me out. When I decided to place Hailey in Doreen's custody I was about 5.5 months along with the pregnancy. I didn't take the time to get a job; looking at things from a business stand point: Why would you hire someone who is 6 months pregnant just to have them go on maternity leave in a couple months? It breaks my heart everyday that I don't get to watch her grow, learn, and make friends, but when you're a parent you do everything you can to make sure your child has everything they possibly can no matter how much it hurts you.

I love music, I love to sing. I want to learn to play an instrument, perhaps acoustic guitar, drums, bass guitar, electric guitar, piano. Anything. I definitely want to start writing my own songs and laying down some tracks, perhaps even start an acapella group. But one thing at a time right?

I know this blog post was very jumbled, however it was also my first ever, they'll be more structured from now on. Promise :)